"we are motionless"

A Loss for Words

I wonder just how many times I've opened this window up just to close it once more. Or how many times I've typed in an entry only to deleted it seconds later. I guess for once in my life I'm at a loss for words. Surprising ain't it? Or not. Especially not as of late. I've been rather quiet as of late. Almost like a ghost.

I haven't gone out for a month now. Perhaps a bit longer then that. I mean, I've gone to work and school and even played tennis a couple of times but at the same time I haven't really gone out in quite awhile now. I'll admit I'm rather busy, with my schedule. But I will also admit that even with a busy schedule I could easily make time to go out with friends. Yet I can't get myself to quite do that. Not yet at least.

As to what I'm looking for exactly, I'm not quite sure myself. But I'll find it. I always do. When that time comes, let's go out and laugh over a nice cup of coffee.

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07 October 2009 10:43:00 PM


"this time is ours"
"Here's what I think, Mr. Wind-Up Bird," said May Kasahara. "Everybody's born with some different thing at the core of their existence. And that thing, whatever it is, becomes like a heat source that runs each person from the inside. I have one too, of course. Like everybody else. But sometimes it gets out of hand. It swells or shrinks inside me, and it shakes me up. What I'd really like to do is find a way to communicate that feeling to another person. But I can't seem to do it. They just don't get it. Of course, the problem could be that I'm not explaining it very well, but I think it's because they're not listening very well. They pretend to be listening, but they're not, really. So I get worked up sometimes, and I do some crazy things."



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