"we are motionless"

Too easy

Death is a natural part of life. It comes, we mourn, and life moves on. In these times I always tell myself that all I can do is keep my head up, smile so no one will worry. Some days I wonder if it has become almost too easy for me to smile.

On the surface we've moved on, we keep going because we must. Society dictates it. We must progress forward towards the future. Clinging onto past events is futile. Meaningless. We cannot undo what has been done.

But every time we move on it seems as if we leave a part of us behind. As to not let that part of the past feel lonely. As to not let ourselves feel lonely. I wonder how many pieces we break off in a life time. How many moments we exist in.

I think everyone wants to be loved. To feel like when we pass away, someone else will be willing to leave a part of them with us. Or perhaps that's just naive thinking. Perhaps.

Soon I will have to leave another part of me behind. Ah Gong is in a coma now. Mom is flying back to Taiwan today. I wish I could be on a plane right now too.

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06 November 2011 7:16:00 PM


"this time is ours"
"Here's what I think, Mr. Wind-Up Bird," said May Kasahara. "Everybody's born with some different thing at the core of their existence. And that thing, whatever it is, becomes like a heat source that runs each person from the inside. I have one too, of course. Like everybody else. But sometimes it gets out of hand. It swells or shrinks inside me, and it shakes me up. What I'd really like to do is find a way to communicate that feeling to another person. But I can't seem to do it. They just don't get it. Of course, the problem could be that I'm not explaining it very well, but I think it's because they're not listening very well. They pretend to be listening, but they're not, really. So I get worked up sometimes, and I do some crazy things."



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